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It seems I've let the stress of my life take over lately and I realized I havent been on here in ages. So I'm back. I wish i could say all the stuff before was still true, but the truth is, I'm not happy. I havent been happy for quite some time now. I'm at a point in my life where I have to start deciding what I want to do with my life after high school. I havent the slightest clue what I'm gonna do.
As if thats not enough, I'm at a point with my friends where I dont find the whole "lets see who can give me the most crap & it still be funny" thing funny anymore. But of course I cant ever say anything to my best friend because she doesnt listen to me half the time, and the other times, she just gets all mad without even trying to understand where I'm coming from. And I always come out being the bad person. Well you know what, I'm not a bad person. Sure I can be a real bitch, but thats just how I deal with stuff that pisses me off or makes me feel like crap. Thats just how I am. I've always been that way and its not like I can just flip over night. What the hell happened to supportive people that actually give a shit.
And dont even get me started on guys. I'm pretty much used to the whole "your cool but your not pretty enough, or skinny enough. My friends would laugh at me"
They might not all say that, but I wasnt born yesterday! Oh believe me, I know that game. But I guess i'm not giving them all credit. Some guys actually say stuff like that to me. Well you know what, I'm sorry if you dont find me attractive. But you dont have to put me down and make me feel like shit. I do have feelings despite what some people seem to think. I'm sorry I'm not a size -4 & a beauty queen. But dont get me wrong, I think I'm pretty, I'm just waiting on someone around here that agrees with me.
I havent completely givin up yet, I'm still holding on to that last little bit of hope that my life doesnt completely suck ass. I'm not the type to just give up anymore, I guess thats why I'm writing this right now. To get it all out in a non-harmful way. I must say it helps. I just hope whoever reads this will try to see where i'm coming from. Feel free to tell me how you feel.
xoxo
Audra a.k.a. me
As if thats not enough, I'm at a point with my friends where I dont find the whole "lets see who can give me the most crap & it still be funny" thing funny anymore. But of course I cant ever say anything to my best friend because she doesnt listen to me half the time, and the other times, she just gets all mad without even trying to understand where I'm coming from. And I always come out being the bad person. Well you know what, I'm not a bad person. Sure I can be a real bitch, but thats just how I deal with stuff that pisses me off or makes me feel like crap. Thats just how I am. I've always been that way and its not like I can just flip over night. What the hell happened to supportive people that actually give a shit.
And dont even get me started on guys. I'm pretty much used to the whole "your cool but your not pretty enough, or skinny enough. My friends would laugh at me"
They might not all say that, but I wasnt born yesterday! Oh believe me, I know that game. But I guess i'm not giving them all credit. Some guys actually say stuff like that to me. Well you know what, I'm sorry if you dont find me attractive. But you dont have to put me down and make me feel like shit. I do have feelings despite what some people seem to think. I'm sorry I'm not a size -4 & a beauty queen. But dont get me wrong, I think I'm pretty, I'm just waiting on someone around here that agrees with me.
I havent completely givin up yet, I'm still holding on to that last little bit of hope that my life doesnt completely suck ass. I'm not the type to just give up anymore, I guess thats why I'm writing this right now. To get it all out in a non-harmful way. I must say it helps. I just hope whoever reads this will try to see where i'm coming from. Feel free to tell me how you feel.
xoxo
Audra a.k.a. me
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