My little plan

[Sick]

Nothing new going on so I figured I'd post something I mentioned on myspace. (myspace.com/sick_re) by the way. Shameless self-promotion. Anyway, the only goal I have in life right now is in about six months or so, I'm going to speak to a recruiter to join the United States Marine Corps. Why the Marines? 'Cause in my eyes they are the baddest motherfuckers around, and I would be honored to have served in their ranks. Why six months? I'm not even close to being in good enough shape to survive two days into boot. So for now I just run my ass off (literally) on the treadmill and pound the heavy bag until I get my stamina up. Then I go in, serve my four years as a grunt, then figure out my life afterward. If I make it out alive. I'm fully aware that I could die in Iraq, but it's a chance I'm willing to take. I am not afraid to die.
I think the weirdest part is that I'm going to join the Marines despite the fact that I have no sense of patriotism. I don't honestly care that much about this country. It's nice, but I think I'd be just as happy living in England, or Ireland, or Russia, or even Japan. Oh, I forgot Amsterdam. I'd fucking love to just visit Amsterdam. I wanna join because, well, I can't think of anything else I'd rather do. I see three scenarios that this creates.
1) I figure out what I want to do career wise while in the Corps., and pursue that goal when my tour ends.
2) I figure out that what I want to do career wise is the Corps., and I stay in and become a lifer.
3) I die in action. I'll reiterate, I am NOT afraid to die. Hell, some days I pray for it.
As for what this all has to do with this site and it's mission. Well, I've never had any self-confidence. What better way to gain confidence in oneself then to join the Marines. The mere mention of their name brings instant respect. And respect is very important to me.
Currently listening to "The Ballad of Resurrection Joe and Rosa Whore" by Rob Zombie.
Peace and love.

[eva]

have you talked to your recruiter about getting in shape?
i had a friend join, and he had to do all this shit to get in shape first or they wouldn't accept him.
now he looks amazing, but his personality has changed so much.. it's made him really cocky, to say the least. i mean, he went from the pudgy guy to the built tough guy who fights in wars..

[THE Heather]

The military doesn't get paid as much as they should. You hear all these stories about awesome bonuses and salary, but it's not that much and it's not worth what you have to do and deal with in my opinion. However, I respect your decision and yes, Marines are the most bad ass motherfuckers around. Good luck!