Steena{Gir}

ok so here's the deal.
i've kind of decided that people out there need someone to talk to without someone judging them or hurting them, someone who is willing to give advice where advice is needed and willing to listen if that's all that's asked for.

I'm willing to be this person.

I've created a myspace for this purpose but for people who don't have a myspace i'm going to use my e-mail address.
I need people to spread the word or at least come to me for something so here goes.

you can get aho… Continue

I don't hold any hard feelings toward you anymore
I did, but I can't anymore... you helped me

If you hadn't broken my heart I wouldn't have become hard and unfeeling for so long... I might have made so many mistakes... thanks to you I didn't end up like so many other girls, alone with something I couldn't take care of.

If you had told me why you did it I might have tried to change for you, and we all know how that would have turned out... I know exactly what you wanted me to be, and at that po… Continue

What I really wanted to do was have an old fashioned tantrum. I wanted to kick and scream and cry.
I wanted to break something, to throw every one of your stupid glass cups right at you big fat head, to grab my baseball bat and break your stupid television and your cable box and your computer, your baby.
“DO SOMETHING!” I would scream “DO ANYTHING!” as you stood there dumbfounded. You wouldn’t know what to do, you’ve never seen me act this way.
“HIT ME! YELL AT ME! DO SOMETHING! DON’T JUST STAND… Continue

she could have aged gracefully, she could still be beautiful, she's only 60 some years old.
but
700 cigarets
40 different medications
12 car crashes
and a divorce later...
here she is
this quivering gelatinous mass in front of me wearing nothing but a robe and socks, that don't cover up her bruised and scarred legs
Parkinson's, numerous back problems, constantly suffering from bronchitis or something else that renders her motionless and moaning on the sofa...

she's constantly complaining, I did… Continue

When’s my birthday, do you know?

Do you know that I’ve been in speech and debate for Four Years? That i've gone to state twice, that I’ve been in 7 plays in high school alone?

Do you know what my favorite color is?
Do you know my favorite pastime? My favorite food, holiday, time period?
Do you know anything about me?

Do you want to?

My biggest fear is that you'll forget who I am, that you won’t care who I become.

You were the last person I’d ever thought would critique my religion.
We used… Continue