The Ventalation Station.What Do You Need To Vent About?

[WrestlerGirl]

Hey guys/girls,this is just a place to come to if u need to vent about what's goin on .and a place of friends and advice .if you think it's corny ,write to me and see what i write back about your problems.I'm also the founder of the discussion,"Teasing.is it For Fun?or For Destruction?so you guys can also write to me there.

[Nibbles.on.Heart-Shaped.Candies]

i'm sick of not knowing why my mind's so fucked.
my love my bf very much, but most of the time...
he makes me feel like shit.
and it's because what he says is true.
:(

[Marquel]

I totally understand the agitation. Sorry that you gotta be round people like that but sometimes you gotta learn how to cope with idiotic and difficult people. I think you handled it well. But there is a place you can go someday that people won't be so dumb. Dunno where that is for you, but if you work at it, you'll find that place.

[Jane Doe]

I've been getting a lot of shit from people in my 4th hour class. Even people that I thought were friends are treating me like shit just so others will like them, like today I walked into the room and 3 people are pushing my desk away from them and into each other, people will throw pens/pencils/paper/ etc. at me, the teacher won't fucking let me move to a different seat, EVERYONE in the room has said something about me being fat/ugly/smelling bad/creepy, some kid that sits next to me will throw notes to the girl that sits on the other side of me (the teacher has probably seen this), the same kid will poke me and say "Jackie" the whole period

Should I just go to the office and have them move me out of that class? Believe me, I have absolutely no one to stay for

[WrestlerGirl]

Hey Guys,Im Again Really Sorry I Haven't Replied To My Discussions In A While,I've Been Really Busy With Surgeries And Hospital Visits.I Just Wanted To Say Hang In There.And Don't Think You Are Ever Without Someone Or Some People To Talk/Write To.If I'm Not On And You Wanna Talk to Me,Just Send Me A Message Or Somthing.I Love You ALL!!!!!

[Jane Doe]

this is an update on the 4th hour situation, apparently I CAN'T be moved out of the class, but then again I haven't said exactly why but I doubt that would change anything.

I was walking to lunch when a group of kids were walking by and one of them walked up to me and said "Hey, I think you're really cute, can I have your number?" I ignored him and more people kept following eventually I just screamed "no" at him.
Then I got back from lunch and the main guy that talks about me wasn't where he sat because there was a fucking lizard by his seat (he always talks like he's so tough, like he wants to be a cocaine dealer when he's older yet he can't talk clearly to my face or be near a frog/lizard, pussy) and demanded that I go get it. I didn't which resulted in me being called a "Fat Bitch" twice and some more mushmouthed comments on my weight/being ugly/the usual,so I got pissed and threw my mp3 player at him and cussed at him. Then I'm crying and the prick next to me starts announcing that I'm crying to the class and thankfully the teacher let me go to the bathroom where I stayed for the rest of the period (only like 10-15 minutes). While I was walking back I saw a friend (more of a friend of my cousins) and I felt better, but when I was walking back to class to get my stuff the kid and this superbitch black-albino girl (the girl walked up to me a month or so ago and was messing around with my bra) and they made some more comments. When I got to the class, the teacher didn't say anything except that I had tonight's assignment on my desk.

The teacher is so fucking indifferent, he lets everyone do anything

most of the kids in the class are on parole/have to be piss tested/have to do community service, I've never even gotten a referral

[Mr Monster]

Kids are kids. Children. The innocence of youth produces some of the most hatred fueled people in the world in this, our country where children aren't taught to properly respect their peers and the morality of treating others the way wish to be treated because parents fear CPS. When the person next to you is not your brother or your sister. They are a tool to be used to gain. And you have found yourself victimized.

I was in this same situation in high school. I'm a rather large guy and moved around a lot. I've been to 15 Middle Schools, and 7 High Schools during my youth and until my Sophmore year of high school was the shy, reclusive type that young social butterflies find it easy to single out and pick on because they aren't one of the "pack". I didn't grow up with them and I wasn't their friend in middle school so I was an easy target that nobody would stand up for due to not being known. I lost people I perceived to be friends to those more socially inclined who thought I wasn't good enough for them and passed those thoughts on to my two faced kindred spirits.

I was groomed much more mature than my peers due to brothers relying on me to be a "mother" figure in their life and a watchful guardian to keep them from trouble and harm. I was smarter, well mannered and aware of my surroundings and the fact that I didn't have to act or look like them to earn their friendship and that knowledge at a young age brands you an easy target because nobody likes the outsider.

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What you have to drill into your head until you finally understand such is that they mean nothing to you. If they don't deem you worthy of friendship and trust then it's them who have a problem, not you. Children are, and I say this because the way you describe them gives them such a mentality, and always will be cruel. Indifferent creatures likely to change themselves to conform to others in order to find acceptance and friendship as empty and hollow as it may be.

You need to focus on yourself and your studies. Pay no mind to students, make sure that you absorb the knowledge passed on to you by your elders in class. Retain it, thrive off of it. Nobody else is going to affect who you are in the future but you. Their opinions, childish remarks and hurtful thoughts will mean ABSOLUTELY NOTHING when you're in college on your way to a successful life for YOU when they're flipping burgers in the local food chain. Don't let their opinions affect who you are because their thoughts aren't a reflection of you, but of what they see. Become a stronger person and realize that you don't need their friendship. You love you and that's all that matters. Friends come and go and in the end you will be left to reflect on what you've done with your life and how you've acted. Will you look back on these days toiling through life and find that you should have been a stronger person or will you be proud of the way you saw past the futility of childish things such as these and looked after yourself and the education that will drive you to a wonderful future?

Let them waste their lives trying to make others hate themselves. In the end the do it as a pitiless effort to conceal their own insecurities. Ignore them and take control of YOUR future because nobody else will...

"Be slow to fall into friendship; but when thou art in, continue firm and constant."
- Socrates

[Bailey Lucas]

ugh...this is totally retarded...and im going to sound like im 15. no offense to those who are, im just saying i feel like i should be past this shit..

So i met this guy *here we go*, i knew him back in highschool just as an aquaintance, and when icky rumors started going around school, he never judged me. EVER. so i knew i could trust him since 90% of the people ive met i CANT TRUST. big issue with me...anyways..

We met again in college, he's in one of my classes, and immediately we became friends again. I had just gotten out of a relationship of a little over a year with this guy bc he was kinda a dick when i got pregnant and had to have an abortion *don't bitch at me if ur pro-life, i dont want to hear it* and i basically had to go through it by myself. Anyways, so this guy *ok his name is Owen* like totally falls in love with me, and im like dude i just got out of a relationship yada yada, and so we were just "dating". So then i fall head over heels for him later and hes like ya'll wanna single say FUCK THAT, FUUUCK THAT--FUCK THAT.

Thing is is not only do i have the abortion thing, the breaking up with my bf thing, but theres also other shit, like losing 2 of my best friends, and having my papa pass away in april and slowly seeing the destruction of my mother's half of the family, and hating my cousin for being such a disgrace upon this family and this earth. oh, and everyone and their goddamn mom is getting some kind of cancer!!!

And ontop of that, when I met Owen.....i mean, yea im a fucking spiritual guru witchy thing, sorry, dont care, i knew that i had known him from somewhere...and hes not very spiritual but one day i said to him "i know you know me from somewhere too" and immediately hes like "i do". then he got freaked out blah blah blah more details yada yada yada basically we've met somewhere other than this life. So I went to a trusted "spiritual guide" of mine, and i told her "tell me about this guy" and i showed her a pic and she's like yea dude i dont think ur done, u guys have had a past and u guys are here to teach each other. But this kid wants nothing to do with me...and im like....well wtf i get to sit next to u in history every other day this is fucking fantastic....

Bottom line, im very very very attached to this kid, and i don't really get attached to someone unless there is a deep-seeded thread that holds us together *a spiritual one*. And im going through all this shit at the same time and having mental breakdowns and having to be doped up on my omfg-please-dont-jump-off-a-bridge-medication, and puking and all this shit. and my mom is like well ur spirit guides wont shutup telling me this is all for a purpose and im like well tell ur spirit guides to shove it bc if it is for the greater good it would probably be best if they get this goddamn knife out of my chest so i dont kill myself so that i CAN fulfill that greater good.


alright, im done. whew that felt good..

[WrestlerGirl]

hey yall, i am so happy yall r gettin sdo much relief from this disscussion, if u wanna know wats goin on, just check my last couple of replies on ''Teasing,Is It For Fun? Or For Destruction?'' its got all thats goin on so yeah, my discusions are so full of replies that i am goin to think about making a new one, if u have an i dea or just wanna talk, give me a massge, or sumthun, i lovee yall, and wish the world runs smoother for ya.

[Mr Monster]

The world SUCKS, and I don't like it.
I think I'll blow it up.

-endranthere-

[WrestlerGirl]

do it. im not using it. ugh. =( everyone i know is now officially, dead.

[Heather Wright]

For eighteen years i've known that i was adopted. For eighteen years i have been told stories of my birth parents. I knew my real father, i didnt need his stories. I witnessed for myself his drunkeness. I saw the bruises on his new wife. And i heard the words from his mouth on how i was a mistake. And my hatred for him grew every time he went out of his way to ignore or hurt me.
I've only seen my birth mother a handfull of times, infact its been twelve years since ive seen her and my two younger brothers. Ive never met my little sister who is not eleven or my little brother who is just a year. I thought i knew the truth. About my birth mother and the drugs. About being traded for a beat up old car and a sack of heroin. About her disgust for me and her unwant. But about four days ago she started calling me. We've had some intersting talks. Im discovering my adopted mothers lies, her deceit, and when i do so much as mention the siblings i have yet to meet i see the hatred and anger in her eyes.
Every one tells me a different story about my past. I dont know who to believe. But i hear sincerity in my birth mothers voice and in her tears when i told her just how life has been living with my grandmother/adopted mother. She wished fo better things for me, she thought she was giving me the better life, but she has come to realize there was more behind my grandmothers temper then what she ever knew. So now i am left to sort the peices and i dont really know what to do.

on top of that ive been sick, im falling behind in school, im suppose to be moving into my own place and my room mate it driving me insane. im honest when she asks me whats wrong i tell her and then she gets pissed cuz she doesnt want to hear it.
Mood: confused and hurt

[Amy]

I've had an eating disorder for three or four years, and have engaged in self-injury for maybe four or five...I am still a minor...Many people with the first problem I mentioned...hide their problem for YEARS (in the instance of EDNOS. Or Bulimia, what I have...) or have to be dragged to the hospital, kicking and screaming (most often in Anorexics. Not to mention, their condition is impossible to hide. In extreme cases, they need to be tube fed.)

I have been repeatedly asking for help...I've gotten some talk therapy. No results. I qualify for an outpatient program. Three nights a week. A meal, nutritional counseling, and group therapy. My parents keep WAVERING. One day I can go, one day it's too expensive. One day I can go, the next I can't, because apparently I want to be BABIED by these people, and escape adult responsabilities. One day I can go...next day I can't because if I can't get over the bulimia alone, there's no way getting outside help would change things. People that need psychiatric intervention are weak willed, and will need it ther entire lives. One day I can go....

...you get the picture. Tired of life in limbo. Help me or don't.
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